Ignacio M. Nosferatu, who is quickly becoming our resident poet, finishes up the year with another Black Dog/Depression/Awareness/Survivor themed poem. Winston Churchill called his “dark periods” visits with the Black Dog. In this particular one, Nosferatu has reached, much like in the five stages of grief, the “acceptance” stage.
Alone but never lonely
How could I be?
With the Black Dog forever stalking me
At the periphery of my vision,
A dark blur, at best, but visible nevertheless,
Waiting patiently for our inevitable collision
A moment of vulnerability is all it takes
For him to slip into my world and make me shake
My shrink says an illusion, a mental mirage is he
A cursory dismissal from an armchair scribe
Who can never fully understand that which I describe
Or really knows how I feel and what I see
Except his own textbook dicta and filigree
And therein lies the rub
The Black Dog is mine and mine alone, I claim ownership
And so, it’s up to me to curb his canine showmanship
I’ve passed anger and denial when I passed Park and Go
Instead, I accept my anxiety and this hallucinatory bub
As an indivisible part of me and my continued sobriety.
by I.M. Nosferatu
I.M. Nosferatu hails from Gehenna (look it up). He has an encyclopedic mind for horror, sci-fi, paranormal, and the occult. He has myriad other hobbies and interests which may not be appropriate to print here (or to divulge at all), but his mission in life (and death) at least for our purposes, is to find good (or as he puts it “sick”), spine-chilling, blood-curdling media in the horror genre and tout it to the world. He is a straight shooter and calls ‘em like he sees ‘em. He will not suffer fools, sycophants, ass-kissers, brown-nosers, and other suck-ups. Pillow Talking is thrilled to have him on board as a guest blogger despite having never met him face-to-face and dealing solely through emails (at odd hours of the night).
If you have something in particular you would like for I.M. Nosferatu to review, you may contact him (if you dare) at IMNos4A2.gmail.com.